Resident reflection

I’ve taken some time off to reflect.  Because occasionally, when I walk past the mirror or a window, I’m not sure of the reflection I see staring back at me.   Cohen said, “everyone and everything that shows up in our life is a reflection of something that is happening inside of us”.  Man, if the last month isn’t proof of that.  However, that’s a story for another day.   Right now, we’re talking about family medicine service.  I remember thinking last year as an intern on the adult teaching service: I cannot do this.  And I had a team to help me.   This year, it’s ATS with a splash of Peds, a dash of OB, and a sprinkle of Psych with just you and the attending.  Now, I say that, Byers is “training me” this week since it’s my first family medicine service month, but still.  It’s so interesting.  At one moment you’re seeing a baby that you’ve just delivered.  Then your pager goes off, and you’re down in the ER working up a drug over-dose.  You head up to the floor to DC a patient that had a syncopal rule out.  Back down to the ER for a toddler with respiratory distress.  The next page is a patient in the unit with an insulinoma.  (Just for all you folks that are reading along thinking, yeah, so who cares about an insulinoma?  The incidence is 1-4 in 1 million!  I may NEVER see one of these again.  But here I am, in Seneca, managing the patient.)  It is never a dull moment in this life.  In the background, I’m still job searching.  The middle wild-child turned two and was nearly arrested for driving under the influence of cake.   And lastly, we lost one of our own in Seneca.  As a true testament to the community that is SL, the office closed and we took time to grieve a loss.   You never forget those patients that you bring into the world, and those that you help find their way out.  Those people teach us immeasurable lessons.  They make us the doctors we will become.  Here’s hoping the I meet people today, on-call, will train me to be a better doc tomorrow.

2 Responses to "Resident reflection"

  • “There’s something lost and something gained in living every day”
    –Joni Mitchell

    1 E2 said this (October 24, 2012 at 10:46 pm) Reply

    • I’ve looked at life from both sides now,
      From win and lose, and still somehow
      It’s life’s illusions I recall.
      I really don’t know life at all- Joni Mitchell

      2 BK said this (October 27, 2012 at 2:19 am) Reply

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